My heart VS My head

Me vs Mr.Bigs...My Heart vs My head...Love vs Lust?

Is it true that if you think about someone every time that you wake up, its love? Is it true, that if you can’t handle looking into his eyes without your heart beating 100 times faster than normal that its love? Ok ok is it true, that if you can’t breathe every-time you think of the possibility that he could love someone else, that its love? Or would that mean that the girl that is experiencing all this is crazy?

I always thought that he was the one, from when I met him, I thought yep, this kid is the one, he just doesn't know it yet. But now I have to take in the fact that maybe he isn’t. Okay so if he isn’t why won’t he get out of my head? They say out of sight equals out of mind....Okaaaay.....but why didn’t this genius think of a phrase for if this person isn’t out of sight but needs to be out of mind?

Maybe I need to check into rehab, maybe i’m obsessed, maybe I just don’t like change, maybe I just keep thinking that one day he'll wake up and think i'm the one, maybe i've watched this episode waaaaay too many times......



My heart constantly leads me to him but my head keeps telling me that its not gonna ever happen...so which one am I supposed to believe? Real love isn’t supposed to be like this, this is how its supposed to be...He loves you, you love him, you agree you both love each other then you jump...........................................with hope the other person catches you but your not really thinking about that because your just enjoying the fall!

It may sound like a fairytale but look, its not supposed to be....He loves you, you love him, you both agree then he says that it can’t happen....who bloody wrote that film...would you see that shit? I wouldn’t see that shit! Its just not right!!!! So maybe it isn’t love at all, maybe its lust...Maybe he loves me but he’s not IN love with me?


Alright cool, I can live with that...its not so bad. *Pause* You see my head accepts that but my heart is having difficulties handling that new data. But Eff it! Its MY heart and it should do as I say...

Dear Heart,

Mr.Bigs is just a friend, you love eachother but in a friendly kind of way! One day you’ll both find people that you’ll fall madly in love with.....maybe Mr.Bigs has already found that person. Either way you need to woman up and be on to the next one, got it?

Yours truly,

Your owner