Wait a minute..........I'm having a drake moment..

We can't go back now! UK stand up!!!

After watching "Luther" i'm completely blown away and filled with so much enthusiasm and passion. The acting in this show is amazing! Idris Elba has proved that not only can he be excellent with an american accent, he can be even more excellent in his own land. Indira Varma is breath taking and I am officially a new fan. If BBC do not renew it after the 6th episode. I will go on a rampage. I haven't been this excited for a british show since Misfits!

....On to the next one......I think :S

I woke up this morning and it felt like it was gonna be one of those days where I wanted to feel sorry for myself and say to the world EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF LOVE!! I'm riding solo for life! I started with listening to this song Christina Millian- It hurts when....



I won't front, I nearly wanted to cry, I felt like she was singing on my behalf. From the verse to the chorus and bridge I felt like she had been reading my diary. I was slowly riding into depression when it came to me......

Mr.Bigs is enjoying his life, probably doing God knows what with God Knows who and i'm here getting ready to drown in my sorrows. Why should I be the one that isn't loving life. i'm not a bad person, yes i'm dramatic but not BAD!

So I asked myself......what do you do, when the person you "love" is in lust with someone else? Yes I said "lust' i refuse to say love until I see a ring *folds arms*

Anyway....

Do you:

1. Have faith and hope that he will come back to his senses?

2. Surpress all feelings, get your head out of the clouds and keep it moving.....

3. Go on an aimless dating spree so you'll forget that he ever existed?

Neither of those answers seem applicable, i'm sure my best friends would advice me to go with 3 but then if I did, would it be fair to the guys i'm dating?

When do you make the decision to stop loving someone, is that decision really in our hands or is that something that we leave to fate?

People say that in time, things will heal but what happens if time isn't moving fast enough?

Well Shit, a chicks gotta eat...... :S

To be honest, like entirely honest, I don't really like dates, especially dinner dates. The whole awkward silences sitting opposite eachother makes me feel so uncomfortable. But in the past couple of years I've been taught a thing or two. One being, "A chicks gotta eat". At first I thought that it was just wrong, I felt like I was using the guy and leading him on. Oh how naive am I? The theory is simple........"A CHICK NEEDS TO EAT". I have learnt that most of the time when a guy asks me out on a date, he is expecting something at the end of it, which means he is basically using me anyway, not to say that he will get anything but its cool to let him think he will *confession*. Don't get me wrong i'm all down for the whole "independent woman" thing but lets be honest inbetween the paychecks funds can be low. So why not endure bad conversation and awkward silences and leave with a full stomach. I say AMEN to that!

My first Love

Wow! I'm actually nervous right now, to think that someone somewhere could actually be reading what I'm writing is pretty scary. I've always shyed away from blogging because I've always had a thing for privacy and my thoughts and figured that it was too exposing. But NOW i've decided that I should be able to share my thoughts, I mean why not? I'm always driving my friends crazy with my random thoughts and theories soooo maybe I'll have someone somewhere agree with me............or maybe not! HEY I guess its worth a try! Anywhooo now that I've released my feelings on blogging please allow me to introduce myself. My name is Rita Balogun and I am an actress *puts hands in the air* *No-one claps* Ok Ok so i'm guessing your trying to figure out if you've seen me in anything and if not then why have I called myself an Actress so confidently. Well you are what you call yourself right? If I call myself an Actress, I am an Actress, I may not be known......But Acting is what I do. Its my obsession, I study it, I practise it and I live it on a day to day basis. Its my first love so to speak.
I named this blog "Confessions of a diva" not because i'm a diva per-say but because we all have a diva inside of us and i'm letting the diva in me be free so these are my confessions.... okay I totally just made that up, I just liked the sound of it...*blushes*.
I love reading, I love my blackberry and I have a lot to say, most of the time, but for now I've run out so till next time, stay fabulous and thank you for reading :-D xoxo